Denica Yay

We all die and nothing matters:
there’s no morning to begin
a brand new day to strive for better,
to rise above,
or stay within.

We all live, but does it matter?
Down in tears,
high on pride.
Now the former, then the latter:
playing ping-pong with both sides.

We…

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June, July, and August.
Summer starry night.
Feeling young and robust.
Long and happy life.

We all want the honey,
but not to deal with bees.
Chasing love and money
without a sense of ease.

Enchanted by the title,
but blind for what’s behind.
To win the prize it’s vital
to know it…

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I’ve been in Hell.
I know the smell.
I know the taste of hopeless tears.

I wear the scars
from Saturn and Mars.
They’ve taught me well through all these years.

My shadow tried
to rule my life.
I‘ve turned to a dragon in the fire.

The stars align
in my…

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There was something in you that I couldn’t conquer.
There was something in me that you couldn’t tame.
We got burned and reborn.
Now in loveless bunkers,
we are free from the pain,
but so out of the game.

There was something in me that you couldn’t release.
There was something…

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Your pain is talking to my pain.
I see the spark in your dark eyes.
I feel your story, sense your flame.
I know just how to break your ice.

I hear your thoughts from near and far.
You breathe my air. I speak your mind.
It’s all at stake…

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Everyone forgets that Icarus also flew. Jack Gilbert

I’ve met defeat.
I know its taste.
It blew out malice in my face.
It mocked my efforts, gone to waste.
I know the burning of disgrace.

I know the shivers of the loss.
It stabbed my ribs.
It shrunk my soul.
I know…

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From the ashes of your dreams,
from the bottom of the low,
from rejection to relief…
Find your sun
and know its glow!

You have calm to rule the storm.
You have spirit!
Breathe in life
into the void in a brand new form.
Start the fire!
Be the light!

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Around me people fall in love:
talk and giggle,
drink and dance.
Slow and gentle.
Wild and rough.
One night stands and love-romance.
Around me people meet each other:
narrowed eyes and pumping hearts.
Soul connection: nothing matters.
Down for love right from the start.
Sipping cocktails.
Downing shots.
Flirty smiles and touchy hands.
Dancing queens and Roman gods.
Chasing sunsets…

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I’ll take the pain unanesthetized -
no sweet distractions for relief.
I won’t meet others to downsize
the sense of feeling incomplete.

I’ll take the pain wholeheartedly.
I’ll give it space. I’ll let it stay.
No crutch for love to help me flee
this dark and broken part of the play…

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Denica Yay

Denica Yay

If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, it will destroy you. Gospel of Thomas